(So. Freakin'. Far. Behind. On. My. Reviews.)
34. Alicia Erian, Towelhead.I loved this all to pieces, and inhaled it in as close to a single sitting as my life allows. (I think it actually took something like four sittings, over the space of twelve hours or so.)
Jasira is thirteen, and surrounded by adults who think they're looking out for her, but are actually all betraying her. All of the adults suspect that all of the
other adults are failing Jasira in assorted particular ways (and each of them is right in their suspicions about the others), but in their quest to be The One Thing Which Jasira Isn't Getting (while making absolutely sure to get what they themselves want from Jasira), they all perpetrate their own injuries and insults upon her.
(You know what these adults reminded me of? The adults in the Ramona books. Who were
supposedly on Ramona's side, yet who betrayed her as casually and routinely as breathing.)
I could not read the Ramona books as a child, because Ramona was five and completely vulnerable to the adults. But Jasira is thirteen, and while she's still vulnerable, she has also learned the fine arts of deceit, of secrets, of playing adults off against each other, of playing them off against themselves. In the midst of all this adult betrayal and attempts to control and use her, Jasira starts carving out a space for herself: a space where she has
agency, where she calls the shots, where she's the only one who knows everything that's going on.
I spent the entire book simultaneously rooting for Jasira ("You
go! You
show them that you're a person and they don't run the show!"), and cringing in terror for her. And also yelling at the adults to get with the program and
take on the responsibilities of adulthood. (I can tell that I've somehow become a grown-up somewhere along the line, because I find myself thinking things like, "I know you have issues,
everyone has issues, but there's a kid mixed up in all this which means that
you don't get to make this about you.")
Some stuff I really liked about this book:
( mild spoilers )Then there are things about the climax that, when I step back from the book, bother me a lot:
( far more serious spoilers )So, in the end, I'm somewhat conflicted about the book. Even while loving it enough to have inhaled it in more-or-less one sitting, and to have refused to pick up another book for
a full twenty-four hours because I was still too busy thinking about this one.
Do with that what you will.
(By the way, for those who chose not to read the spoiler-cuts, but who still want trigger warnings up-front: there's sexual predation upon a thirteen-year-old in this book. Just so you know.)